It has been so long, I have been through so much since the last time I have written in my blog, and now I feel it is time to reclaim my seat. The fact of the matter is, blogging was such good therapy for me. I was able to get all the crap out of my system; just regurgitate up and out all the bad stuff that filled my soul with angst.
I have totally seen better days. I have been living with my mom ever since I moved back from Chicago, three years ago. My luck with jobs has been terrible! I am wicked discouraged. Although I did pass the Postal exam this week. Working for the post office would be an amazing switch, if/when I get that Government job. I would be going from peanuts to over 40K starting pay. And with all the benefits coming my way. Security would be my middle name hahaa! It's a waiting game right now, I am keeping my fingers crossed and steadily praying about, and for it (say if you could either keep your fingers crossed for me, or, if you pray, say a prayer for me, I would totally be grateful for that--I mean if anybody reads this, that is).
Lately, for chump-change, I have been working as an independent courier for a couple of online companies, such as, Postmates and even Caviar for a little while. It's okay, but, you have to work forever to make a steady income (then again, that might be because I haven't found the right online company to be a courier for yet. I just applied to be a GrubHub driver, we will see how that goes--sick of Postmates).
I am doing the best I can to keep my head up, but, I feel that something needs to happen fast, or I will have a problem not acting in desperation. I have looked into volunteering into the Turkish army to fight ISIS. I haven't done much for this country, and so when I saw that program on Netflix about Americans and others from all over the world volunteering to fight against Isis, a light bulb lit up. I am not saying that I am going to do that but, I have romanced the thought. It is funny where our mind takes us when we feel worthless.
Life is tough, the world is dangerous, and nothing is going to get easier...
Life Isn't Easy