A myriad of scruples
ethical questions by the quadruples,
do I live like I'm wrong
play the "I'm a filthy rotten human being song?"
I'm forced to live with myself
I'm not going to worry 'til I suffer from ill health,
I am what I am, a man that is less than perfect -
I'm less than great, I am what I am and have accepted
it as of late.

I don't care what you think of me anymore, I have nothing to prove,
I live my life without chains because I am not a slave nor am I misery's whore.
Yes I would be a whore if I lived for others and I tell you this - NO MORE -
pride is one of my minds blood brothers.

Like a tumble weed you blow away from me
because you have no more power,
I took my love back and you feel sour -
evil vampires sucking the life out of my soul -
I take that power from you you will no longer look
good by hammering me down into a hole.
keeping me down to raise you up,
get out of my life you abusive FUCK!

    I've found a challenge, another site that not only allows you to post for free, but, pays you to do so. http://www.wikinut.com is a place where you can write articles, stories, poems, essays, or journals: On that site you're moderated with the possibility of being rejected. It's true, your writing might not be published right away, however, the rules posted on this new and up and coming website will help you to avoid rejection. If you should ever decide to give Wikinut a whirl, you will see that it is very organized: you have to choose a category, you have to write a summary, tags, titles of the page and the article, and finally you HAVE to make sure that your pictures and information is backed up with sources and links. When you write titles avoid using all caps, never write a post in full caps, edit your writing, and steer away from inappropriate content and or abuse -- all those listed are sure ways of never publishing. 

     I'm enjoying myself so far, being a writer that can learn a lot more about the art -- this is a great place to practice writing submissions. Wikinut is not as competitive as the other sites of its kind; it's directed towards the amateurs or beginners that aspire to be better, and need the practice (people like me).

     Money: 

There's three ways you can make money -- and for free...

1. Join and write.

2. join, write, and invite others (you'll make 10 percent of what those you've invited make, if and when you join just provide your personal link -- this is mine: http://www.wikinut.com/in/ullini/) 

3. Join, write, MODERATE, and invite others (you make 5% of what others you've moderated make http://guides.wikinut.com/How-to-become-a-Wikinut-moderator/1kh8dk-b/).

  I'm enjoying myself so far and I'm sure you will too. No more fighting for top blogs, or getting pissed off because the top blogs are bombarded with ridiculous posts that hold absolutely no value. It's just you, your writing, and a chance to earn some extra income if you do a bit of work and persevere. 

   Anyway, that's my spiel and now I leave the ball in your court, I hope to see you there, I know for a fact you would bring a lot of good to this site...

Accompanied by the touch and sound of the breeze
Like a discarded plastic bag caught in the intertwined branches of two trees
Alone, stuck in a world of shackles
A pain in my chest, breath leaves my body — like life ran into me with one of its hardest tackles
Filling the internal wounds with spiritual spackle
Mending my heart to maintain a happier beat
Looking up to the heavens gathering necessary provisions
The answers I get are nothing short of concrete
Failure happens often but I won't accept defeat
Food for thought, wisdom is the meat
So I sit here with my head bowed down
I continuously pray for a better day
When it comes to answers my higher power wears the crown
As long as I keep looking up I won't frown...

     So I finished my book and am now in the midst of getting it copyrighted (easy), an ISBN, and self-published: It's been over four years since I made the decision to write this book, and frankly I'm petrified. Writing this book is one of the most important experiences of my life. I went back in time, looking at my failures -- personally, socially, and financially -- I made the theme of the book out to be about why I live in a paycheck to paycheck dilemma, but, the true story is known in the text as being the character defects that have held me hostage. An inmate residing in self. Self-reflection -- me trying to free myself from my own cage of destructive impulsion: behaviors and attitudes that have kept me walking in place until this day. PETRIFIED! Because I want what I wrote to be read -- is that wrong? Am I wrong for wanting people to read my book? To relate with me, to confirm that I'm not the only person that has/is going through all this noise I've caused myself. I don't want to be the only person to know this noise, I want others to enlighten me with the fact that they too have/are experienced or experiencing that same very noise. The noise that reminds me that I haven't done anything right. That I need to smarten up, or I'm going to die the same way I lived -- second best.

That's why I'm petrified: I gave this book my all! I don't want it to be unread, I don't want it to be a written reminder just for me; I want others to share the reminder with me. I want to share this fight, the fight to beat second best, in this race where only first finishes.

How do you think you would do fighting four people trespassing on the land you marked as your territory?

Do you think you would have done as well as Mr. T -- from the "Mapogo Coalition"? 

I don't know, you'd have to be one tough individual...

Morning bids good Tiding

With every paycheck I pay extra tithing

Taxes — federal, state, and others demanding my cheese

I hope someday I benefit from all these mandatory fees

Hoping to excel — reaching high enough to ring that bell

To live the dream after telling "paycheck to paycheck" to go to hell

When it comes to failure I choose to rebel

Second best has become a status my inner-being can no longer sell

I used to listen to that little devil on my shoulder and the negativity he would tell

An abyss of failed failure is gonna be the secret to my success

buried them, learned from them, and am the man I am because of them -- I must confess

I tell this story and it is as true as hoover wearing a dress

I'll make it in this world -- ME! -- God did bless

Believe it or not, your opinions don't matter

You're jaws drop further when my mind, heart, soul, and pockets get fatter

It's late now and I need to get some rest

tomorrow will bring a few newer elements to this test

MY POSITIVITY  FILLS MY HEAD WITH THE SMELL OF FRESH LEMON ZEST --

THE TASTE OF VICTORY IS FRESHER THAN A MOUTH FULL OF CREST...

Picture Source: http://www.visitkorea.or.kr/enu/SI/SI_EN_3_1_1_1.jsp?cid=264212

I rock to the tune of the wind

the wind from the lake has never sinned

it's angelic and makes my soul dance

the music God plays puts me into a trance

I try to be good and am often times a success

but without listening to the music I lose to stress

anger, angst, and sorrow fill my heart with a black sea

then there's an absence of a beat -- no one can reach me

I grow deaf and blind of all solace

I lose sight of my higher powers promise

then comes that bad attitude 

then comes that dark, dank, and hollow solitude

I put all my evil to rest every time it shows up

I pray to my higher power and drink of his cup

I listen to what his music is saying to me

I let it fill my heart while feeling all the darkness flee

life is good to live today

today I didn't wake up in dismay

dismal is gone and joy is where my heart chose to lay

life is a puzzle, a game, and I'm equipped to play it

the worth of living is measured by how much or little I'm

spiritually fit,

as long as I have God in my life my vernacular will never harbor the 

word quit,

I HAVE NOTHING TO FEAR BECAUSE THE TUNE SKIMMING OFF THE LAKE IS LEGIT...

http://trigearreviews.files.wordpress.com/2011/10/lake.jpg

 The problem with the government and people in politics is, they don't know what they are doing; how do I know? No one has said anything good about any of the presidents, congressmen, or any one of the American government's legislature since I've been alive. Not a fuckin' thing! Democrats are all over republicans, republicans are against democrats, democrats are against democrats, republicans are against republicans, and the other miscellaneous are ignored so they will never make a difference.

What's even worse is, so called educated people defend these fuckin' phonies! 

IDIOT -- incapable of learning...

Wake up and stop boring everyone with your political arguments that no one knows anything about, or makes a difference in anyway!

We walked into my bakery and we felt like eating
something sweet, we wanted dessert so bad we could feel the heat.
Then we both decided to share our dessert with each other,
this is a huge sign that she and I like one another.
She licked my "eclair" and sucked all the filling out,
I ate her piece of "cake" and licked all the frosting off.
Her "cake" was soft, sweet, and sticky.
After that she still wanted more and she wasn't picky,
she shared her "doughnut" with me, I stuck my finger in
the hole and my finger got icky, when I took it
out, she loved the taste of her "doughnut" so she licked my
finger quickly. My "cinnamon stick" was ready to go in and
be consumed. She took it inside of her, my "cinnamon stick"
was going to be devoured I presumed.
We enjoyed each others desserts for an hour,
then we ended this sweets frenzy with her favorite, she
                          has to have em!
We ended this night with a "chocolate orgasm."

There are some people out there that scream for attention, well here is a list that will get you tons of attention, if that's what you really want of course. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that these are healthy/respectable ways nor do I encourage them, I'm just saying.

1. Find a crowded field and light off bottle rockets from your ass.

bottle rockets from crack - Watch more Funny  Videos

2. Fly a kite naked.

3. Break a limb and put it on YouTube.

4. Dry hump in public.

5. Throw a fire extinguisher from a roof.

6. Light yourself on fire and run down the road.

7. Have an orgasm on a roller coaster and put it on YouTube.

8. Get hit by a car (this clip is amazing, the man doesn't only live he, well, check it out).

9. Streak in front of thousands/millions of viewers.

10. Get K.O'd by a girl while acting like a tough guy with beer balls - post it on, once again - via internet,
YouTube.

There you have it, so if getting attention is important to you by all means go for the shock of it - put yourself under life's microscope by bringing the pain, pleasure, and needless acts of a man/woman looking for "Wow's" "Ahh's" and "OMG'S".