November 10, 2012
-
It's Time To Live
Since July, I've read almost nine books (not including the books I published or text books from classes), and I've published two. It's been an interesting few months. Will it all pay off?--only time will tell. I figure if I keep reading, writing, and working to find ways to better my financial situation, I will find a way to success. Happiness will come when I finally establish a network of friends, offline, and find a life outside the four walls where I eat, sleep, and shit. Poetry readings, writing clubs, people who are found in these said places -- men and WOMEN. Women have always been the apple of my eye but my weakness when it comes to approaching, dating, and sealing the deal with them. In a nutshell, to be blunt, I have and have never had "game". I don't believe in "game", I don't play fuckin' games when it comes to the heart -- even sex -- to me game is juvenile. But, I'm starting to realize that even though I believe it's bull, I need to have some, I need to have some because when it comes to finding, "The one", there's a lot of competition out there. "There's one out there for you Carsten", I believe that, but, being out of the game by not showing up to it has caused and causing me to lose my chances in finding her.
Am I scared? Yes. I'm scared because it's a big world, I've been to hell and back in this life of mine and I don't want to get lost, again. Lost in complications, lost in the elements, a broken heart -- dreams shattered, visions blinded, spirit laid out on the floor -- I want to do everything right. I don't want to make anymore mistakes, I don't want to fail, I know that no's and failure is a part of success in a career, writing, women, and in many other facets of life, but, DAMN! IT SUCKS! Scared of HER saying no, I hate no's, I take them personally -- BLAH! BLAH! BLAH! I could go on and on.
No, I'm not a pussy, I'm a man, I'm bringing all these feelings out so I can get rid of them. So I can look these feelings over, up, and down, so I can look at what I've just said in writing at a later date, and compare them to the new feelings I have when I become a success, when I'm happy, and when I have that beautiful better half in my life. It will take action. I will have to make the initiative to go get what I want, and if I don't get it right away, I'll learn something while in the process of acquiring what I'm seeking. I've already made some connections, I have people in my corner, I see a professional, I'm checking out opportunities people I've met informed me of, and I have opened my naturally social mouth to people in efforts to ignite friendships. Or at least making myself attractive to others that are looking for the same things I am. There really isn't anything stopping me, holding me back, there's nothing that should hinder my prosperity in all the things mentioned in this documented assortment of feelings -- I spewed for all to read and relate to.
So I go forward now and keep up the great fight, I wake up to a new day and welcome challenge, and I strip myself of the broken armor I once wore, replacing it with newer and stronger armor, and I am now ready for whatever challenges, obstacles, and struggles life wants to strike me with.
It's time to live...
Picture Source: http://www.maurilioamorim.com/2011/07/judging-the-struggle/
Comments (10)
I don't cerebrate some of websites offer this typewrite of assemblage.Meelba Tips And Tricks
I’m surely coming again to read these articles and blogsDo-Group Website
Marvelous work pals, I love reading your articles.Relationship with Our Luxury
I m inspired with the exceptional and instructive contents that you provide in such short timing.I see the greatest contents on your blog and I absolutely love reading them.
@ShimmerBodyCream - Awww, you're awesome!
Your success is you're an awesome person and really unique. IMO you are already there.
@loner_writer - You are going to be a success though. You will, and so will I...
It is possible for two people to share passions ^^ heh. You're doing right by making connections and all the rest, I'd agree. Even though I have a creative sort of mind, I've largely failed because collaboration/more education would be of benefit.
@AmorVomnia7 - I see and understand what you're saying. There's a lot of truth in what you say, I guess living one day at a time and doing what I love is what's important. Thank you for the comment my friend, you gave me something to think about.
You don't need a woman to live.In fact, in this day and age... I'd suggest living without 'romantic' relationships.Focus on friendships and fulfilling passions and dump the need for a woman. I notice that romantic relationships are a drug. Jonesing for one is like jonesing for your next hit. I actually feel it's unethical to sell it to kids the way we do. In many ways, I feel I was scarred by the messages I received and came to learn were completely untrue.Romantic relationships are not worth it most of the time, and they can only disappoint when they've been pedestalized. Saying such things gets a person branded as a cynic... But to me it's optimistic and empowering to be able to free yourself from an addiction.Of course... Just one man's opinion.
Comments are closed.